Into the Wild
The beautiful thing about film and art is the way it moves you. It can carry you along from one place to another. Sometimes not even aware of it, we’re swept up into something, and then gently let back down when the experience closes.
I recently saw the film version of John Krakauer’s bestselling book Into the Wild. The film, just released by Paramount Vantage in late September, boasts Sean Penn as writer/director. Set in the early 90s, the film follows the story of Christopher McCandless (played by Emile Hirsch), a fresh graduate from Emory University with high scores, and big aspirations. Well, one would think. After graduation, Chris gave the $24,000 in his savings account to charity, abandoned his family, and set out on a journey that would take him to South Dakota, Mexico, and ultimately the great white north of Alaska.
All of us have dreamed at some point in our lives of making the same decisions. Life can get so muddled and fake that we long for this idyllic place. A place where life is more “true”, and different than whatever has scarred or hurt us in our past. You will find early on in this film that it is not a “survival” film. It is not a film of great adventure, or of a heroic character beating the odds as he wages war against the wild.
This is a film of escape.
McCandless lives in the world where status and degrees are currency. Harvard Law is the next logical step, and you certainly can’t drive a beat up Datsun if you’re going to attend Harvard Law. That’s what Walt McCandless thinks, Chris’ father. The tension that develops between this seemingly happy family is overwhelming. So overwhelming for Chris, that he escapes.
With Thoreau and Tolstoy in hand, and a backpack of essentials he sets out for his own personal quest into the wild, where the constraints of a bastardized society do not reach. You can find ideals in the wild. The way things “should be”.
In the wild, you wouldn’t have to deal with your father’s abuse. You wouldn’t have to live with knowing your father had a previous family, with previous children you knew nothing about. Everything wouldn’t be a fraud. Things have been said. Things done inside the walls of a family that cannot be healed in Chris’ mind. The only tonic, the only cure, is leaving it all behind. Not just leaving, but becoming someone else…Alexander Supertramp.
His consoling words along the way to another, speak for himself as well. “Some people feel like they don't deserve love. They walk away quietly into empty spaces, trying to close the gaps of the past.” So it was for Alex Supertramp, and Chris McCandless.
The wild calls us at different times in our lives. It taunts us with its beauty, promising that it can fill the void, and make us happy. For Supertramp it does. For the better part of 2 years he’s dead to the world. Dead to his family, his sister, and the society that hurt him so deeply.
When McCandless’ parents first realize his disappearance is voluntary, they can’t understand him. They want to scold, yell, “Why is he doing this to us? Why is he embarrassing us?” These are the reactions Chris expects. What he doesn’t see however, is what his sister Carine narrates at one point in the film.
“I wish you could see them now. They’re not the same people they were when you left…they’re softer.”
Perhaps if Chris could have seen how his parents had changed. How they had gone from selfish frauds in his mind, to…parents. Hurting parents.
This journey is an escape into the wild. An escape from people. The journey is to find all one could ever need in the bosom of nature herself. Though many set out on such a journey, they’re often left with the same void upon arrival. The void that only relationship can fill. Only the happiness that another human can provide.
Each character McCandless comes into contact with on his journey has the same story. The same void of forgotten relationships, unforgiven people, and they plead with him to turn back. To stay with them. But his void is not yet overwhelmed.
On a desert hillside, his grandfather like friend, Franz, played by Hal Holbrook, pleads with him, “When you forgive, you love. And when you love, God's light shines upon you.”
This is what we wish and long for Chris to see as we watch. We pray he feels the love of a Father waiting at home to see his face. He wants to know, “What if I were smiling and running into your arms? Would you see then what I see now?” We hope the prodigal will return, and instead of finding the judgmental glare of the father he knew, he would find the loving arms of his father wrapped around him, holding, crying.
The wild is real. It does not care for others. It does not take into account your quest or personal journey. It does not care for your scars or wounds which you bring into her cave. And so when we find ourselves there, armed with Chris’ words, “Rather than love, than money, than faith, than fame, than fairness... give me truth.” The wild mocks us and tells us to go home. Only the happiness and relationship that community with other human beings bring, can heal the wounds and scars we all carry. Only our lives together can overcome the abuse of a father. For McCandless, it was what the wild so brutally taught him.
“If we admit that human life can be ruled by reason, then all possibility of life is destroyed.”
His last words were, “happiness is real, only if it is shared”.
Are we sharing our lives? Do we know the wounds and cracks of our lives can only be healed in relationship, in community?
This is a film that does not leave you in the same place you began, and for that reason alone; it is a beautiful work of art worth our attention. Make the drive. Find the theater.
Into the Wild.
2 Comments:
Phil,
I left a lengthy comment in praise to your blog, "wounds that heal and cracks that fix" I don't know where it is. But you did a great job decribing community and our need for relationships. I hope I can communicate as well as you.
Dad
By Anonymous, At 11:23 PM
You said " The wild mocks us and tells us to go home. Only the happiness and relationship that community with other human beings bring, can heal the wounds and scars we all carry. Only our lives together can overcome the abuse of a father. "
In the wild you do not find the answers you cannot escape, there is no escape from the pain within. You must look into the conflict. You must forgive, and let the Love of Christ shine through it is the only way. Yes, some people think they do not deserve love this is true and we don't we are unworthy of it, but it is Love that we so earnestly seek it is the one thing that we long for the most, simply to be loved. We are unworthy but it is by God's grace that we find that love.
Going home is not always an option. Overcoming the abuse of a father is only found in forgiveness, for it is through forgiveness that we can once again share our lives with others. It is the relationships that we develop that allow us to learn to trust again it is the good relationships we develop that is the healing balm.
I know what it is like to be this person I know what it is to receive abuse from a father I overcame the abuse of my father through forgiveness. With me that forgiveness came when he died at his funeral in 1995 I forgave my father for abusing me as a child and I let go of bitterness and anger toward him. The physical wounds and scars had long since gone and the abusive words that echoed from my past but the ones in my heart needed taking care of. Without Jesus in my life I am not sure I would have been able to do this.
Through the cross Christ forgave his abusers and I to did the same.
I think of the scars and wounds of Jesus ...
Hands were held against a cross as nails were driven in,
Wrath poured down from heaven with the rain;
The power of one broken man would later be revealed
In scars that mend and wounds that heal.
Hanging in the balance was a man who knew no sin.
Bleeding life into into a dying race;
The Father's plan of rescue could no longer be concealed
In scars that mend and wounds that heal.
In scars that mend and wounds that heal,
Blood that washes white as snow flowed crimson down a hill;
A picture of eternal love forever stained and sealed
In scars that mend and wounds that heal.
Hands that held the prints of nails are stretched out to the world,
Souls in death are lifted from the fall;
The power of one sacrifice so gloriously revealed
In scars that mend and wounds that heal.
Did not Jesus face the ultimate of abuses ? What did he say ? Father forgive them for they know not what they do.
Relationships are a vital part of our being we need them, we desire them , we long for them. We desire meaningful relationships, and I believe that we the " church " should be reaching out to a lost and dying world, the community around us developing close relationships with those in our midst loving them into the family of God. By doing this we are that healing balm that we all need and long for.
By Shirley, At 4:27 PM
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